Ramblings of insomnia

Thoughts

Published on January 1, 2005 By Dysmas In Blogging

Yes it a new year. People say what a great thing it is. What new joys and oppertunites will come our way. Great experiances and memories we can build anew. Yeah thats all true I guess but that is what the victims of the disaster thought. I guess the point that comes to me, in my freakshow of a mind, is that you should never count on what may come your way, just enjoy what has.

Comments

Danny Bassette

on Jan 01, 2005

I'll agree, you should enjoy the present, but at the same time you have to at least plan for the future. Even if you don't make it there, if you do you'll want to be in a position to enjoy it when it becomes the present.

Dysmas

on Jan 01, 2005

Yeah Danny thats...wait thats not proper.....yeah Mr. Bassette, I agree with you on that completly. "always be prepared" or whatever the Boy Scouts used to say, I can't remember. These things come to me often, as I sit here at my God forsaken computer. (how I hate it so) Yeah, I have insomnia due to the medication im on and probably because im just me as well. Yep, wife in bed three feet away, kids asleep in thier room. Me, sittin' here wicked tired and all I can do is "spend" time Fing around. Kinda of pathetic if you ask me but ive seen enough Cops re-runs by now.

Danny Bassette

on Jan 01, 2005

I don't mind you being improper, as the saying goes, Mr Bassette is my father

Funny how much time we spend on the evil computers. Maybe you could get in bed and count the hairs on your wifes head? Doubt it would help you get to sleep, but it would be a way to pass the time

Dysmas

on Jan 30, 2005

Been away for a bit but thats ok. Im not missed much lol. I have some GREAT NEWS!!!....................ok, not great at all, im just a sarcastic ass. NOW the army tells me I have to go to Walter Reed Military Hospital in DC. Ok. And, because of my condition, I must have a chaparone. Ok. BUT they wont pay for my kids to come! Im 1100 miles away from my family, how in the hell am I supposed to go to DC with my wife and NOT with my kids? It makes no sense at all.
I have to go for a Neuropsychology Test. At first we were told it would only take a day, and thats great. I got a referal from a civilian hospital to another civilian hospital for the test..........that is until the Army stepped in. They said "Not a chance, you can only go to a MILITARY specialty doctor for a Psych test." Of course I had no idea why so I asked. They told me it was for Operational Security reasons. IM NOT EVEN IN IRAQ ANYMORE!!!!........sorry for the yelling its just frustrating to me. Besides, I already know what I can and cannot talk about. Geeze, you'd think they would think that since they already trusted me they would continue to do so.

> I can't fly out there because they won't pay for the boys, so we have to drive. My wife is going to be stuck driving the whole way (can I feel any more worthless?) there and back. Then we are told that now, in the military hospital, what could take only a day, is going to take about a week! A WEEK!!!!

Money we have to just pull out of our ass. Sure they will re-imburse us, somewhat, but thats not the point. We have to front this money. Thank God we have some saved, most people around here don't.
So on top of my regular insomnia I have extra shit to think about.

Aint life grand.

drmiler

on Jan 30, 2005

Reply #4 By: Dysmas - 1/30/2005 1:08:33 AM
Been away for a bit but thats ok. Im not missed much lol. I have some GREAT NEWS!!!....................ok, not great at all, im just a sarcastic ass. NOW the army tells me I have to go to Walter Reed Military Hospital in DC. Ok. And, because of my condition, I must have a chaparone. Ok. BUT they wont pay for my kids to come! Im 1100 miles away from my family, how in the hell am I supposed to go to DC with my wife and NOT with my kids? It makes no sense at all.
I have to go for a Neuropsychology Test. At first we were told it would only take a day, and thats great. I got a referal from a civilian hospital to another civilian hospital for the test..........that is until the Army stepped in. They said "Not a chance, you can only go to a MILITARY specialty doctor for a Psych test." Of course I had no idea why so I asked. They told me it was for Operational Security reasons. IM NOT EVEN IN IRAQ ANYMORE!!!!........sorry for the yelling its just frustrating to me. Besides, I already know what I can and cannot talk about. Geeze, you'd think they would think that since they already trusted me they would continue to do so.

> I can't fly out there because they won't pay for the boys, so we have to drive. My wife is going to be stuck driving the whole way (can I feel any more worthless?) there and back. Then we are told that now, in the military hospital, what could take only a day, is going to take about a week! A WEEK!!!!

Money we have to just pull out of our ass. Sure they will re-imburse us, somewhat, but thats not the point. We have to front this money. Thank God we have some saved, most people around here don't.
So on top of my regular insomnia I have extra shit to think about.

Aint life grand.

Nope life "SUCKS"!!! But you have to play the hand your dealt!

Dysmas

on Feb 12, 2005

I know it's not late yet, not for me anyway. I just feel so damn tired.
It's true that I always do feel tired but the past few days have been hell for me. I dunno mabye im just bored, that or the change in medication has actually kicked in but it still sucks.
I come to JU to see what people are writing about, perhaps something will be interesting and all. Tonight I get here and the vast majority of topics are computer related. Not that its a bad thing its just simply not something I care about.
Such a life I live now.
Of course my lungs hurt from smoking too much and my muscles are sore from the stupid new "six second abs" thing I bought. ( yeah im a product of advertising)
My eyes are sore, and my head hurts. Poor me, poor me. Whatever.
I tried the whole chat room thing........no way!
It feels like my mind is slipping away and its crazy!
I HATE insomnia.
The worst part of it is that I know its so early and that I have so long to go before I can even hope to fall asleep.
What do I have to look forward to? Oh yes, siting in my chair, in the dark, having a smoke and trying to stop my swirling thoughts just for a moment so I can have a good look at something, anything!
Shit, even this post sucks.

Calico Cat

on Mar 20, 2005

I watch people die every day at work , I find it hard to belive in God when I see the sufferage people endure. Besides if there was no religion would there even be war?

Dysmas

on Mar 21, 2005

I don't tend to reply to anonymous users sorry, ( how can I be sure you will be around?) but you are entitled to your opinion, which I completly disagree with but thats ok.

anyway folks. I recently returned from Walter Reed Army Medical Center in
DC. I had an 8 hour long neuropsych appointment. it took a lot out of me and my poor wife was stuck trying to entertain two children for the 8 hours in a hospital. It sucked pretty bad. The doctors told us that they "should have the results in a couple of days" but when we called 5 days later they said "mabye in a week or two" just goes to show you the BS we have to put up with in the military. Can't trust a damn thing they say about anything. Figures. well im back now, (im sure your all excited [yeah right]). and so thats the story so far.

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